I sometimes used to wonder if the new year was really a new beginning or just a continuation of whats to come. Kind of makes my head hurt now. I have been struggling the past few months to gain some balance, some understanding of the going-ons in my life. I think that as a person gets older they begin to question should I have done this, could I have done this instead, am I making the right choices? I try to live with no regrets. God didn't put me here to question the path to Him only to follow. I know that He will only give me what I can handle and He gave me the tools to get where I need to go.
Sometimes I question if I have made the right decisions for my children. I think as far as regrets go I don't want to regret anything about how I raised them. I don't want to question my decisions everyday on my parenting, but then I think that maybe that is what a parent is...constantly questioning whether we are making the right decisions. I love my family but is it necessary to have to constantly remind myself that?
So we begin a new year, I have a lot to look forward to...Michael turning 4, Curtis turning 12, and Bryan and I getting to 12 years. I want to do a lot this year. I want to begin writing a book, and to lose A LOT of weight, but I wonder if I have the dedication to do this. My first promise is to blog instead of holding it all in to let it explode. So my first resolution...as resolutions go, to blog at least 2 times per week. Just an update on what I resolve to do this year.
